TYRANNY OF THE "SHOULDS"

Are you like me? Do you find that all your time goes into doing things you think you SHOULD do and not enough time doing things you want to do? Another day is about to get away from me, and it is aggravating. I keep thinking that I want to spend time doing some creative things - but by the end of the day, creative joy has evaporated. I have to pay the bills, and balance the checkbook, do the laundry, go to the grocery store, all the ordinary necessities. But, then there are the things I do just trying to anticipate possible "speed bumps". You know those irritating onslaught of thoughts that come from being a world-class people pleaser, and worry wart. Believe me - I deserve some kind of trophy in that department. Want someone to worry about you? Just give me a call. I'm an expert. Then I spend so much emotion on things that are completely beyond my control. Pleasing people is exhausting. Worry is debilitating, and a sure-fire way to kill creativity.

Who appointed me the official "keeper of happiness" anyway? I can't make anyone happy except me. It is truly an inside job. I think I need to concentrate on that. That would be a big step in the right direction, I think.